I thought it would be fun to live alone..

So I'm 20. I still live with my parents, but I work 2 jobs. My fam went up to Chicago for about a week or so. I stayed home because we have chickens and dogs and a cat and the gardens and fishies. I took time off work so I could be there for the animals and take care of the house.

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I invited my friend but she works full time during the week. And she said she had this weekend free so she was gonna stay with me. But I only saw her during the night time. But then she got this amazing opportunity to go to Atlanta (about 4 hours away from me) with her Boss and her job during the time she'd be helping me. So she's gone half the time I'm watching everything.

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Everything was fine when she was here. But when she left. I found a snake in the back yard. Had to make sure every animal was safe. Then my cat caught a bunny and i had to call a friend to help me shovel the bunny in the back field. Then a chicken got loose out of the chicken pen. I'm fine with chicken if they are locken in their chicken cage. But it took me hours to put her back in. And I called people to help me as back ups. I got so scared.

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Im not eating as well or at appropriate times to eat. (I would usually eat a little something for breakfast around 10ish. I skipped it. Lunch at 12ish and I ate at 3ish and dinner at 6 and eating at 9ish. If you know me, you would know I like to eat at those right times.

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My point is: I'm having a mental breakdown everyday. My eyes are blurry right now just writing this. I'm sitting in my car with my frozen dinners I just bought in front of my house.

How am I going to be able to live on my own?

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Thankyou to anyone who made it this far.

UPDATE: Thank you everyone who commented! Everyone helped me! I love y’all and this community ❤️