We lost our sweet Logan on May 1st of this year, he was 11 months and 2 weeks old, exactly two weeks shy of his first birthday. It was sudden and unexpected, he was a healthy happy baby boy and we are still searching for answers, that I doubt we will ever get... I have been out of work since. I am a teacher so I stayed out the rest of the year and into summer. I have about a month until I go back for the next school year. I am starting to realize , I don't think I am ready. I teach kindergarten. I do not know what is appropriate ro say and not say when a kid asks how many kids I have (they want to know everything!) Or do I pack away the pictures I have at my desk of both of my boys to avoid the subject. I do not think, I know I can't go five days a week pretending Logan didn't exist, and that I am a mom of one. I am so conflicted. I had hoped I would be "ready" to go back. I still have a month, but I know I won't be... I plan on talking with my principal to get her perspective but was wondering if there are any other heartbroken mom's like me out there, that have lost an infant... How long until you went back to work? (I know many people do not have a choice in the matter, for those i.am so so sorry that you had to juggle working and such pain at the same time)