Trigger warning 😣

I had a rough childhood and I don't even remember how old I was when I first realized that I was suicidal.

My teenage years were the worst and I tried killing myself and running away multiple times to get away from my situation.

I dragged myself thru school, dropping from straight As and honor roll to rows of Fs on my report cards and just barely passing through each grade.

I graduated three months after the rest of my class.

I gave up all hope and quit trying because I just knew one day I would find the right way to end it all.

Now I have no goals. And no idea where to start.

I have a job, it's not the best but it's something.

I have a boyfriend, he loves me more than I've ever been loved.

But where do I go from here?

The things I want aren't typically common.

I only want to run away and live in the forest somewhere.