i feel so lost. i had sex 2 months ago. i had all negative tests besides one positive digital but negative tests after that. i’ve had shorter lighter periods. i know people are going to say you can’t have a period when your pregnant but i’m not sure if it’s decidual bleeding. my breasts feel tender & i feel nauseas, but the bleeding is basically gone besides when i wipe, so my “pms” should be gone. i’m going to the doctor today but i’m just so scared of the results. i’ve felt like i was in the clear so many times but i just keep feeling so lost and confused. i just hope my cycle is really messed up but i’m just not sure what to think anymore. i feel so bad because my friend who i’ve really been leaning on throughout this thinks i’m in the clear and i don’t want to bother her so i come on here but i feel like i post so much and people are probably annoyed. i just want it all to be over so badly. i hate myself so much right now and i’m scared and i’m lonely.