Sex STILL HURTS at 8 Months PP

I'm 8 MONTHS PP and sex is still SO incredibly painful I can't stand it.

I had a 2nd degree tear I think, and I lost a lot of blood (almost needed a transfusion).

We use lube. We go slow. We try different positions. I went to PT for a while but now I'm back at work now and I don't have the PTO to take off anymore.

All these people are talking about how they had sex 6 weeks PP or 8 weeks PP and it was good.

I feel like I'm never going to be okay again.

HELP. PLEASE.