So, it just now hit me, reading a post on here, that 4 years ago my ex tried to r**e me. How? 2015, we were 15, I was hanging out at his house on my phone on his bed, on my stomach. Doing my own thing when he gets behind me and flops his D down on my butt. Nothing new, he did it often. I ignored it until I felt a sharp pain in my butt. I yelped and said “what the fuck are you doing?” He said “sorry, I slipped”. We only lasted 3 months. Might I add he sexually assaulted me a month prior to asking me out. Again, I was only 15 and didn’t realize it at the time. I should have been more smart but I was only thinking about his feelings because he said “you deserved better than your shitty boyfriend. I can treat you so much better” as he forcefully held me down on his bed and kissed my body while I laid there in total shock, scared and unable to talk. I said yes to dating because I didn’t want to hurt his feelings. We were “best friends”. He always hated my boyfriend and told me he wanted to date.

Anyway, 2 years go by and in 2017 senior year, we shared a student store class, where he tells me the story of how he told all of his friends about that day he tried to initiate sex with me. I did a double take and said “sex...? What are you talking about? We weren’t trying to have sex?” I got beyond pissed off he even shared information about what we did behind closed doors. I slammed his phone to the ground and walk out of class. His smug ass just smiled and laughed saying “you wanna punch me in the face? I’ll let you.” I didn’t even realize until reading a post on here that he tried to r**e me.

1) we didn’t have condoms

2) we were 15 fucking years old

3) he didn’t ask or tell me

4) I always said no to anything but HJ from me and him because I was HIGHLY uncomfortable with anything else. I was NOT ready for anything more. He knew that and apparently still proceeded to have sex because “he was trying to get me in the mood”.

So he sexually assaulted me, force my clothes off when I said no, and try to fuck me without my consent. I was such an idiot for not seeing this before. I feel like it’s my fault. I could have done something to prevent any of this from happening but I was in such a bad place mentally in 2015, I thought it was normal.

Fuck you Jacob.