30 weeks and so depressed

So I’m 30 weeks and I’m so over this I’m so depressed it’s crazy I’m laying here crying my eyes out . I don’t wanna be pregnant no more and ion know what to do ! I’m literally laying her googling what happens if I go in to labor now . My thoughts are very bad and ion think I’m at a good place at the moment ! Like I want him out now I want to go into labor today the survivor rate is 98% and I don’t care I don’t know what to do and I can’t stop crying