So I haven’t posted on my own but have responded to others who have lost a child. Today has been a really hard today. My daughter Mia died in February. She was only 4 months old and was completely healthy..until she wasn’t. She passed away within 48 hours from strep b. She was a c section and I tested negative for strep b so according to the doctors the chances of her getting such an infection were .01%. She was the most perfect baby. She slept through the night, breastfed beautifully and was just beginning to show her personality. Her laugh was contagious as was her smile. She was perfect.

I was a very devout catholic and am now struggling with my faith. Why did this happen to me? I’ve always felt like I was a good person. I’m a teacher for kids in a low income area, always gave to charities and helped out at the homeless shelters which my students came from. Why was my daughter taken away? I feel like if God was real he would have saved my baby instead of taking her away from me. I feel cheated and just so incredibly sad. There are days where I don’t cry and I try to be happy but it’s hard. I don’t want to feel sad anymore. I don’t want to be strong anymore.I don’t want anyone’s pity but just needed to vent out my feelings. Thank you for reading this