Why is my brain like this

My brain is like wait a min if an abortion is only 230som dollars and people want it to be free but there are places they can get one for free because I don't know. But my eye surgery is over 1000$ and considered a cosmetic surgery a surgery that will save my ability to see is considered cosmetic and its a convenience thing that my insurance wont pay for. Nobody offers it for free or helps pay for it. Like wtf ok and abortion isn't done out of convenience is it not considered cosmetic why dose my insurance willing to cover more than half of that but cant fucking cover my eye surgery ( I faked alot of shit to see what my Insurance would cover)