Body image

Anyone else really struggling with their body image post baby? I’ve struggled with my weight for several years now. Before I got pregnant I was about 40 pounds heavier than I wanted to be, but worked out several times a week and dieted with no changes unfortunately. and then gained 50 pounds in pregnancy... after losing the initial baby weight, I’m now 60 pounds over where I’d like to be. My body is so squishy, covered in stretch marks, and everytime I see a photo of myself I don’t recognize myself. I’m honestly disgusted with my body. I’ve started working out again and eating healthy, but I’m just worried I’ll struggle to lose the weight like I did before pregnancy. And if I’m being honest, part of me has a deep fear that others are looking at recent photos of me and judging me for how huge I look. I know my body grew this amazing baby that now feeds him but it’s still so hard to not hate my body. Anyone else feeling this way, and what are you doing to build your confidence?