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How do I get away from you? All I ever do is make you upset. You tell me how if I do everything you say that our lives would be perfect and we could be successful, but when I do, all you want to do is "relax" and nothing gets done. I wish I chosen a different path because although I love our children and wouldn't trade them for the world I want to escape you. You want everyone around you to get better when all you show are destructive or lazy habits. If I take the kids away I know you will be mean to them even though you say otherwise. You disrespect people constantly but expect the utmost respect from everyone. You are a conundrum that I cannot figure out. I am ready to leave but have to figure out how. I put all of eggs in one basket with the wrong person. I wish you had left the moment you realized you didn't like me. I have no idea who I am anymore. Nothing I do will ever be enough.