Its just been a long time since I felt like anyone genuinely cared about me ): if I didnt have a baby I would probably kill myself.

It isn't post partum. My baby is already a year old. This wouldve happened sooner if it was PPD. I just really dont have any friends and I just feel alone. All my family lives an entire country away. I cant afford to go visit them and i cant move from my state because of custody agreements with my daughters father, who also couldn't care less about me. I just want to be happy and I dont want to feel alone anymore.