Wish I could look like the girls he looks at!

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For the longest time mainly starting during my pregnancy and after birth my bf was constantly looking at other women on all sorts of social media. I could obviously see the stuff he would like because it’s public. I’ve always been insecure then especially being pregnant/post baby body I didnt feel much better. Doesn’t help that he never compliments me. It took a long time but I brought up him doing that and how it made me feel. He seemed so sincere and said he was sorry for making me feel that way and he doesnt know why he did it. And deleted everything. Well then months later he does it again. But shortly after he again deleted everything/unfollowed all the stuff with girls. So it hasn’t been an issue for months, we’ve been doing better in our relationship and moving forward. Well today I again saw on Facebook he liked a page of girls(obviously girls showing off their body) it hurt me so bad when I saw that again. We’re suppose to be trying for another baby but it makes me not want to if he’s going to be doing that again. I get guys check out other girls once in a while, but it’s completely different when it’s become an issue and that I’ve expressed it hurts me and why. And that it affects my self esteem. I don’t even know what to do or say to him. I’m tired of repeating myself and not feeling pretty enough for him. I just don’t get it. I’m a very petite girl, but still curvy, I take care of myself/how I look. I just don’t get it.