Anxiety

I’ve been struggling really bad with my anxiety lately, I feel like my life is going no where. I dropped out of high school my first year to be homeschooled, I just couldn’t do it I woke up every morning dreading going to school, half the school year I spent crying everyday and the other half I didn’t attend because I just could get my self to walk through the doors. When it came time to get a job I thought I could do it, but I went the first day and never came back, I’m absolutely terrified of driving every time I get behind the wheel I have a panic attack, so I’m 18 I can’t drive and I’ve never had a job and the thought of doing either terrifies me to no end, I told everyone I’m taking a “gap year” but actually I just don’t know if I’ll be able to go to college so saying I’m taking a gap year is probably going to turn into a gap decade. . I can’t live like this and don’t know how I can have a life! I feel embarrassed and so stupid. What am I supposed to do?