Anyone just want to give up?

I just want to stop so bad. He says that we aren't actively trying, that we aren't preventing either.

But it's different for me. I have to take prenatals and be disappointed every 45 days taking a test, and get hopes up when I am late, and think I am every single time I get sick in one way or another.

It's different because he isn't feeling the disappointment every day.

I had a miscarriage, bad birth control side effects, and now I have to have a vaginal surgery. I can't keep doing this. I just want to give up.

I can not keep being disappointed in a relationship that is going nowhere. Been together 7 years and all we are is living together.

I feel like I'm going to have a life crisis and chop off all my hair.