Idk what to do

On Valentine’s Day this year my mom passed away we was not expecting this very shocking well when I found out I was pregnant I did not know what to think because she was the first person I would always tell well like if me or my sisters are having a depressed day we can’t talk to my dad about it or even say her name our dad gets mad and say y’all need stop thinking about her she gone can’t do anything about so get over it well when I found out it’s twin I started crying cause all I could do is think bout my momma well to get to the point I want to tell people but I can’t because I have not told my dad because I no he say something negative so should I go head and tell him and get it over with or just tell him later on