Ftm is it normal to feel this way

So I am a ftm ( 19yo) and vary scared my mom is across the country from me and not coming. And I dont know if I can push a baby out and be ok afterwards. Like I know people have been doing it for millions of years but I have 16 days till my son is going to be here. And physically I think I am ready with diapers and all that good stuff. But I have hurd about people bleeding out after birth. I am panicking because I know my husband will lose his shit if I die. I am so scared someone please help