i don’t want to lose him. *Updated with more info*

i literally am writing this crying while he’s asleep next to me in bed after a heated argument because i didn’t want to clinged onto. (i’m 11weeks pregnant and very hormonal and like to have some space)

he got stern with me because i didn’t want to kiss him or cuddle up to him. he got upset and walked out of the room and ignored me. i understand he likes holding me and being all on me but i’ve explained to him many times how i feel about it. we just got engaged not too long ago and he’s truly my best friend. he’s my world. i don’t want to lose him but, all these little arguments are hurting me. he says these things and blames my hormones every time, especially when i try to tell him how i feel. it’s just the hormones. he doesn’t want to listen to how i actually feel or understand why i’m feeling the way i do. every other week it’s a different argument.. i have no one to confide in or to talk to besides him. lately i feel like i can’t even talk to him. i don’t know how to approach this situation. i have many times talked to him about this and it always happens again.

my main thing is, how can i actually avoid these arguments, how can i make sure we both are truly okay and not feeling so stiff about eachother.

more of a background to us, he’s hurt me during these arguments once he said, “if anything ever comes between me and my kid, i will let them know it was because of you.” as he was hugging me.. he sounded so spiteful. he didn’t even think this baby was his in the beginning and wanted a paternity test but didn’t even come to me instead went to his sister.. i felt kinda weird with that because his sister probably thinks i’m sleeping around when he’s just insecure. every night, we kiss eachother 5x. i spoon him and play with his hair till he falls asleep sometimes to even help me sleep i’m 19. he’s 22. i do as much as i can so we can still have our intimacy but, sometimes i get annoyed cause he’s always on top of me or hovering. we’ve had many many conversations about this. i just wanna see if i can approach this different since nothing is working out the way i’m hoping it does.

i truly do appreciate all input and advice. i know i’m complaining or ranting i just want to be able to make everything better and be able to prevent another spiteful conversation/feelings/arguments.