Emotionally drained

So yesterday at work I was talking with one of my coworkers. Currently she Is fostering two children that are siblings. They are only 11 months apart. While talking with her I was in disbelief of someone who could have children but not want them. Currently the mother is pregnant AGAIN.. I sit here and wonder why.. why can someone who doesn't deserve children, someone who doesn't even want children get pregnant so easily. And someone like me have such a difficult time. I went and cried in the bathroom, got myself together and carried on my day. I know the time will happen but I'm emotionally drained. Drained the day AF shows up, drain from all the false positives, and drained from letting myself down. Baby dust to all. Cause God knows I need it. ❤