So in order to understand this you have to know about last night. So me and my husband live apart because we miscarried twice and I got depressed, turned to drugs. We got evicted and were getting our lives together. He stays with his mom(they rent together) And I stay with family. We are still together just living separate because we can't afford our home right now. So i get us a hotel and he comes over and we make love and he holds me. Did i mention I'm 31 weeks pregnant? Anywho, we fall asleep and wake up for the breakfast this morning and he steps out the room and while I get dressed something tells me to look at his phone and I do. This is what I find

Ladies I feel just dead inside. I haven't said anything. He came back with the food and I can't even eat. I just feel sick. He keeps asking what can he do to make me happier and I smile and say I'm fine. I don't know what to do. I feel like when I was on drugs and I made us lose everything with my addiction he is seeking other women and it's my fault... we're already married and he is telling her we isn't?? She's also married I read. I haven't called or texted her either. He made me seem like such a bad person I'm sure she would text him as soon as I did. And I haven't slept with anybody but him. So now the baby isnt his? And I can't even bear the sexual stuff. He hasn't gotten it a lot because we don't live together which is why I got the hotel but we have sex 2-3 times a week when I go to his house or he comes to my family home. So why isn't it enough... I'm just shook...