My husband and I are just laying with each other before going to sleep, and seeing FB videos about other people’s babies (we do this almost every night). We both enjoy seeing other chunky babies laugh, those videos make me so happy ❤️😊 makes our heart melt. ANYWAY...

His sister gave birth just 4 days ago. And everyone has been asking us when are we having a baby. ( I found this rude to ask btw, idk if i’m overreacting about it) since my niece is the first grandchild, they’re looking at us to be next... So much pressure is on me and I think my husband feels it too.

My husband is the sweetest man. We love our niece to death. I was crying by myself earlier (just one of those days that you have to cry it out bc you’re not a mom yet, and you don’t know what’s wrong with your body. Why- can’t-a-baby-stick moments)

I felt lonely, like my husband wasn’t understanding what i was feeling.

In our regular routine, He randomly said “ Did it stick yet? Is there something in here “ He put his hand in my tummy. Mind you, he is the type that “whatever happens, it happens. And if it doesn’t happen. I’m still here” type of guy.

When I heard him ask me that, i froze. I saw his face when he asked me, He was sadden. This broke my heart into pieces and at the same time. It put me together. I’m not alone in this. Now I know, He’s in the same place I am. He just doesn’t show it. 😞It’s been a year and some change. I lost count tbh. I wanted to forget how long I had been trying, How much money down the drain. I’m mentally exhausted. And i’m glad i’m not feeling like this by myself.

I wanted to know if some of you have been through this with your partner? I wanted for us to talk these feelings out. I’m a big believer in therapy. We have been to counseling before marriage. We both loved it and it helped. Thank you for anyone who made it this far down lol i know it’s a lot just wanted to hear some advice.