How to enjoy Pregnancy???

I am trying to figure out how to enjoy my pregnancy. Considering the child’s father doesn’t want them and I am trying to transition from college to real life. I also just recovered from my eating disorder and the next month I end up pregnant. Gaining weight is freaking me out I’m 115 and paranoid. I want to know how to enjoy being pregnant? What do you ladies do?

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My number one dream of mine was to be a mom but not at this time in life. It was never an option to do anything else but it feels weird.