Venting!!! Long post!!

I recently found out that my sister-in-law and her girlfriend are pregnant!! I am happy for them but, I'm jealous and sad that they were able to get pregnant and I haven't yet. I cried after they left and been feeling down. Its like really whyyyyyy!!! On top of that shes smoking (weed). I had a miscarriage due to fibroids about 2 years ago and feel like pregnancy is something to cherish and give up things like that for your child. I know it's going to be hard to be around them right now 😔