I really wish I could calm down

I am so much more worried now that I am 30 weeks that something is going to happen to my baby then I was in the 1st trimester..

If Elijah is off on his kicking schedule, or if they are not very hard I worry that something is wrong, I had a dream the other night that I'm went to use the bathroom and when I stood up there was blood everywhere, it honestly scared the shit out of me. All of my OB appointments have been fine, my baby boy is growing on schedule and is healthy but I am still so worried he is going to pass away, I just keep praying to God, I know it's in his hands, but damn these nerves are driving me nuts.

Anyone else more nervous now that the time is getting closer?