I get nervous before any ultrasound there won’t be a heartbeat.

I am 16 weeks pregnant and had our first ultrasound at 7w6d and good heartbeat. Went for another ultrasound to check on an ovarian cyst, great heartbeat. Then at 12w1d I woke up gushing blood. I went to the ER, was told we were miscarrying. Luckily, my OB ordered an ultrasound and baby was wiggling around with a great heart rate! I have a subchorionic hematoma (blood clot) and they did another ultrasound to check the bleed and baby and bleed were fine.

I’ve literally had 4 ultrasounds and every time things have been great. We are going to a place tomorrow to find out the gender and I’m terrified we won’t have a heartbeat. Am I crazy?!? Why am I doing this to myself?!

I can’t feel the baby move yet, so maybe once I can, it will better.

Any advice?