Somebody just call me dumg

I feel like my baby dads (I said what I said) just broke up with me. We don’t actually have kids together, and we haven’t been together in over a year now, but I think some part of me always thought it would be a forever thing. We’ve been friends for a while and our whole relationship was really complicated and he wasn’t the best boyfriend, but I know he’s a good guy and that in his head he loved me (I hope). But I feel like he doesn’t want to talk to me anymore after I got too drunk (he doesn’t drink and I RARELY do) and now I feel like he’s just done with me and never wants to get back together. He’s the only guy I’ve ever really been with, and I thought I was over it but I feel like I just got broken up with when I didn’t and blah blah blah blah blah

Someone just call me dumb idk