Should I

Try to lose weight before trying for a baby? I’m 5’4 and weigh 390. I know my lifestyle is completely unhealthy ,in many ways I’m addicted to food. I don’t want to have a kid and not be able to take them places because I cannot walk far. I don’t want to be the mom who’s too out of breath to play with her kid at the playground. And honestly don’t think it would be fair to my kid if I don’t lose weight before bringing them into the world. Somedays I wonder if I’ll die in my sleep because I’m so over weight. Just like any other addict I know there are consequences that may result from my over eating. I feel like I may die any moment from a heart attack, can’t seem to understand why I want a child so badly when I obviously don’t care about myself 😔