( I’m 17 about to be 18 ) my bf is 18 about to be 19 , we are a year n 4 1/2 months we been try for over a year in the beginning I had ( PID) a bacterial infection but after I got out the hospital I went to my Obygn to see if I can still have kids bc I could have got scaring in my overies well anyways I’m all clear to have kids but idk about my bf I asked him about 4 months ago if he can’t check his sperm count to see if we can have kids but honestly he said “ I don’t have time for that , if I can’t have kids then find someone who can give you one “ but in reality I know he’s scared bc all we dreamt about was having a family of our own . He’s a good guy and I love him with or without a family , we both had a pretty rough life but anyways I stopped trying for a baby but I still put my legs up when he came in me , I just didn’t want to go through depression on not having a baby bc it takes time but this month I got my period ( yesterday ) it was the worst pain of my life I woke up at 2:45am do to pooping &’ a lot of pain i never had so much pain in my life it hurts so much . I’m going on birth control for a month then I’m going to stop taking it to try and get pregnant my sister told me it worked on her that’s why she got it and then got off but idk if it’s true to get in birth control and stop taking it to get pregnant faster . My cousin tried to have a kid for the first time and it worked fast , she said it shouldn’t take long that something might be wrong but I’m all clear to have kids .

I know some of you guys believe I’m to young to have kids at this age especially bc I’m young and have a lot to discover but I believe everyone deserves a family bc there’s so many broken family’s out there , I’m a broken family &’ I’m ready for everything to start ( I want my future to start already without any regret )