I feel like I’m losing myself

I know just because you are mom you shouldn’t stop taking care of yourself . Every time my husband wants to take me out to eat I tell him no. I’m sleep deprived, my dark circles are reaching my mouth lol. Going out involves dressing up and putting makeup on and I don’t have energy for that. Plus the times we’ve taken the baby to eat I haven’t been able to enjoy because he starts crying in the middle of it .

I need to find balance between being a mom and wife I know it’s not easy. I’m only 31 yo & shouldn’t be feeling like my life is over. Do you mamas go out with your significant other and the LO?

My mom and my sister, SIL live close by but they haven’t offered to stay with the baby and honestly I don’t like bothering anybody.