21 weeks with twins, ongoing anxiety.

I’m pregnant with twins after 4 recurrent losses. 21, almost 22 weeks and dealing with ongoing anxiety. I cannot speak for other pregnant women, but I constantly worry that something is wrong. I’ve been feeling movements, which is amazing but I worry it’s not often enough. I worry that I’m only feeling one baby move and not the other. I worry that my belly isn’t big enough and that one died or isn’t developing enough or something. I’ve always struggled with anxiety about my own health but I just can’t shake the anxiety of these babies health. I thought it would get better when I heard heart beats, saw belly growth, felt movement. But even with all those milestones, I still worry. I’ve wanted this for so long that, I worry I’ll do something to hurt them. I wish I could relax and enjoy this pregnancy. 😬😔