I have been seeing this guy for not that long but I’ve known him for a long time and I really care for him a lot since we’ve started seeing eachother it’s been amazing I feel like I could fall in love with him he so sweet and takes good care of me and makes me so immensely happy he’s such a great person I care very deeply for him

But I am bipolar alone with some other things and I had decided to not take my medication and try and deal with it on my own (Ik i shouldn’t mess around with it but I am genuinely trying to control it on my own I have kept the non medication a secret from my family) I have secretly been going through a manic phase and I think I am starting to come out of but I feel my self going into a depressive state and my depressive episode get really bad and last for months I feel like I don’t want him to see me like that or be dragging him down or holding him or being a burden to him anyway like maybe I should just spare him the trouble and end it before I’m full deep in it