It’s been while since I posted

Soo hi everyone!

It’s been a long time since I posted here.

It’s been rough. I’m still not pregnant and honestly I’m too scared to test...

I’m four days late but I feel like if I go test then I’ll get my period. I know I don’t have real control over this but it’s how I feel.

Does anyone else get like this? Like they don’t want to test because it makes it real if it’s negative. And I don’t want to get my hopes up.

I have been trying for almost 3 years and I just feel like it won’t happen.

I am scared and I feel like I’m alone. I know I’m not but it’s hard either way.

Who else is right there with me? Afraid to test and get hopes up?

Let me know I’m not alone!