I’ve just lost baby number 3. Two stillborns and I lost this one at 12 weeks after so many years of trying. I have a condition called CHI and even this time on a treatment plan we had our worse results yet and with the best specialist in Australia. I’m so heartbroken and being 36 now it’s looking less likely we are going to be able to have children of our own and I’m struggling to deal with this. I’ve tried to do everything right but it’s never enough. I haven’t drunk for 8 years, I use no chemicals at all including beauty/hair products, I only eat whole foods with nothing in them and a balanced diet by a nutritionist, I get weekly accuptunture as recommended with the treatment, I only do light exercise and get plenty of rest and drink at least 2l a day of only water, we have a cleaner so I don’t have to clean. I haven’t drunk a fizzy drink in about 4 years or eaten any takeaway food in 4 years as well. It’s so hard when your so strict and still get bad results. I am not sure I can keep dealing with the heartbreak over and over again and it’s so difficult having a fully decorated nursery with the door shut for 3 years. I just don’t know what to do anymore