Just need to vent...

We’ve been trying and trying... and nothing. It’s depressing when I see everyone I’ve gone to school with my age, and younger having children or having their second or third. Exes of mine and my husband having children. While I’m happy for them I can’t help but feel jealous and the “ well why not me”. Am I just not supposed to be a mom?

Both of my brothers had their second child each this year and I love being an auntie but damn! I want to be a mommy! Maybe I can’t get pregnant because I won’t be a good mom? I watched my niece this weekend while my brother and SIL were at the hospital with my new nephew and maybe I’m just not cut out to be a mom, cause boy, did she get the best of me! I hate that you want something so bad and you try for it, but nothing comes of it. Just losing hope and sadly just becoming “over it”. I need to lose weight and just be healthier overall but that’s hard to do when this makes you feel depressed.

Just needed to vent and get that off my chest. I feel