Hubby and I have been TTC #2 for 15 months. I found out I had PCOS a little over a month ago so my doctor put me on 50mg clomid and progesterone. I was told I hadn’t ovulated before starting the medication, which crushed me because all this time I had no clue. This cycle I took clomid days 3-7 and got a positive OPK on cd 14. I was over the moon, I couldn’t believe it. Then a week later on cd 20 i got yet again another positive OPK. Baffled by this, I called my doctor and she said she believes my body had attempted to release an egg but failed and tried to release the egg later causing the second positive. Regardless if I ovulated cd 14 or Cd 20 hubby and I baby danced both times and in between and after of course. I felt so unbelievably hopeful this cycle, I just had that gut feeling this would really work.

On CD 28 I took a pregnancy test.

I GOT A VVVVFL!! I was so excited I started looking on Pinterest for ideas to surprise hubby in a few days expecting to get a dark line my following test. Instead..the test I took on CD 31 bold negative. There are no words for how I felt seeing that result after feeling the excitement for 2 days..

Today cd 32 AF decided to show her ugly face and I feel like I’m in such a dark place. I feel like a failure to my husband, he wants another baby so badly but my body just refuses to deliver. When I just told him I started he just looked at me and told me it’s okay and we can try again but I just feel like he is crushed just as I am. We were both so excited and did everything we possibly could have to make this work. I have been taking prenatals for 4 months, I cut out sodas and sugary snacks, tracked my ovulation this cycle...I just dont understand why I cant conceive :( The cramps and the backache im currently having are the worst I’ve had in my life. I’m assuming it’s from the meds.

Anyways I’m sorry for going on, I just needed to get my story off of my chest because there’s no one else I can go to about this. So if you’ve read this entire post, I appreciate you for letting me vent to you whoever you may be.

So here’s to month 16...😓