I’m so sorry. 😔 it’s super hard. I had two missed miscarriages then had to turn to IVF. I’m 33w3d from IVF and I am still scared. I was also super anxious before ever having miscarriages. I didn’t want to buy anything either but at 24 weeks I became high risk and put on bed rest so we felt we should start preparing. What you are feeling is so normal! My husband always needs to tell me that what we do won’t change the outcome so we need to try to enjoy ourselves. It is soo very difficult. Try to take it one day at a time, one hour at a time, or one minute at a time if needed. You’ve got this and so many people rooting for you and your babies!

I understand how you feel, it's extremely difficult to emotionally accept a new pregnancy. I felt the same, it took me a while to see that we may actually get to bring a baby home at the end. Every test, appointment, week was a new hurdle we reached...eventually you feel more positive...I found buying some things helped me. I hope you find your positive outlook soon 😘xx