So my family has created... Wait... I guess I have created an awkward, messy, crappy situation. My mother, sister and I are very close even though we have our own lives now.

Things were happening in my marriage and with me suffering with depression and other issues, this resulted in me being a zombie the last few months. But see in a pro zombie. I acted like I was fine.

So everyone was confused and could tell something was off, but I kept saying no and kept smiling.

Long story short. It was a disgusting mess.

Everyone TOTALLY MISUNDERSTOOD ME. Here I am dealing with extreme depression and now I had people ATTACKING ME telling me I'm rude, selfish, evil... All these terrible things because my professional zombie game was so bad they misinterpreted it as me being an evil person.

Imagine how much worst that made me feel.

Honestly, I don't think I was wrong because I was surviving. I couldn't talk. I didn't want to talk. Everything hurt inside. I needed to be left alone. But they didn't know.

They made me worst.

So my moral here is... If someone in your life is being off and being weird... Please let them be and don't judge them.

My family was seeing me being this way not for days or weeks... But months. They just thought I was weird, which technically I was, but it was due to being weak and depressed.

When someone is mean or rude and you know they are good people... Please, I know it hurts and it's not fair.. But just don't take it personally and don't add on to their plate by judging them.

Again, I know, not fair... But please just be the bigger person and let them know they are good people and you support them even if they are having a weird moment.

Those words hurt so deep... Depression is not visible. This is one of the reasons why some people don't make it... Because depression is misunderstood as rudeness or weirdness... Selfishness...

Please please be kind. So many of us are hurting SO DEEP... So quietly... Even if you think we have it all... We have nothing. We are numb 24/7. We are hurting. We are just good (somewhat good) at hiding the true problem.

So if someone you know is acting weird let them be and please never stop loving them.

Ps: I hope this post isn't read the wrong way... I'm not talking about people abusing their family and saying depression was an excuse... Please take this as someone just trying to help others in my shoes who are simple people who are just hurting.