It’s been two years since I pushed this little human out. I remember the crippling fear after he was taken away to be cleaned up.

How could I care for a baby? I never wanted kids I don’t even know how to change a diaper. I remover thinking well at least I have my husband because he’s amazing with kids, he can help me out.

They say mother intuition will kick in and it’s true. I didn’t know a damn thing about kids and I was able to keep this little goof ball aide successfully! I had post part in anxiety, I cried a lot. I felt alone and isolated, it’s been a huge transition from having freedom to go anywhere whenever to having someone attached to you at all times. He’s now my best partner in crime. Helps with with the animals and is fantastic with his brother.

I don’t know why I never wanted kids because these two are the best things to have ever happened to me. :)