Never google your symptoms... It is TMI

So....... extremely embarrassing...... and lots of TMI

I am 26 years old, a mom of a one year old, and surrogate mom of a 2 year old. In a amazing relationship with my girlfriend who I want to marry.

For 6 months almost 7 I have been ripping myself up.

I'll explain.. it wont be nice tho...... get ready...............................

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Okay.

I have been suffering for 6 month of an extremely ichy....... anus. I know.... its disgusting:(.

It's no joke tho.... I ripped myself up cause I cant stop the ichyness. No matter what I do.

And now it has traveled to the inside.

Now I dont wanna be funny... but I am not into butt stuff!

Man...... when it's this bad and the Ich is to intense... nope......gotta do it. I have taken soooooooo many showers, have started wiping with baby wipes to make sure there's no dirtiness anywhere near there. So no. I'm not dirty down there.

I'm so embarrassed to talk about this but its driving me insane and now I decided to Google what this could all mean. I know I shouldn't...

but I did.

I spoke to my doctor today and they are setting up a specialist appointment. His face looked worried.

I sat my girlfriend down today and told her what the doctor said and told her that she needs to think about what would happen if I did......... god....... if I had Colon cancer.

That's extremely scary to say.

Cause it could be possible.

Dont know what's going to happen or what this is till the doctor gets answers but...... I'm just really worried and should of never googled anything.

Anyone else having this problem?? Please what do you do to help it?