He cried..

As many of us know, miscarriages are nowhere close to being fun or a “happy time”, especially for us women. For it being the first time I’ve had to experience a miscarriage, I’ve been constantly reading all types of articles , or even posts on here . Anything to help ease my mind or even just feel better about it. Unfortunately, I may have been so worried about myself in this situation that I’ve been putting my fiancé and his feelings during this time on the back burner.

I know I may be shamed for this. I never intentionally forgot his feelings or thoughts . He is always , and I mean ALWAYS , the strong one in situations . He knows I’m the emotional one by far , so he remains silent , supportive and strong .

I had just recently started my first cycle after my miscarriage, although it took a extra week to appear , it came . I know this is normal to happen , I even let him know it can take longer than normal to reappear . I just never considered that he may notice the length in time between Mc to period, but he did....

I am in full on cramps, wanting to just lay in bed . He comes to me , pushes my hair behind my ear and says “I’m sad that it came because I thought you may be pregnant again.” *BANG* just a shot through my heart 💔💔 he continues to say how he has been mad and sad , that he knows it is not either of our faults for our loss . There isn’t a thing we could do, but he is sad. he just wants to hold my belly for nine months with a healthy baby to hold in the end . He just started crying so hard and I realize I’ve let him down by not even stopping for two seconds of my pity party to ask him how is feeling . I should of , I should of asked .

We talked for a while . He explained how he had in his mind all of these things that he wanted to do , change negatives in his life to positives before the baby came , but now he feels hopeless, like he’s lost faith ... honestly , I am unsure of what to do for him because I feel the same way . Maybe another baby isn’t in the cards anytime soon , and that kills . 😭💔