i feel terrible...

i’m a terrible person. i have everything that i’ve always wanted and i’m still not happy. i have a boyfriend who loves me to death, a best friend who would never want to lose me, and family that accepts me for who i am. the thing is, i’m bored. it feels like connor doesn’t wanna do anything with his life and i want to go on adventures, live life, and have fun. it’s my senior year and i feel like i’m wasting it on a boy. i thought i loved him but recently everything feels different. i cant just break up with him though, i could never lose him completely. i feel like i’m losing him already and he doesn’t know how i feel at all. i think about other guys and it sucks because i would never cheat on ANYONE, but i cant help it because i’m bored. i literally feel like he doesn’t want to have sex with me or anything. i feel like we both lost interest, the spark is gone. it sucks because i’m the only one who realizes it. i’m not sure what to do. he’s my best friend, but i don’t think our relationship is working. what do i do?