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I personally feel as if I’m not allowed to feel depressed or anxious or anything... I was diagnosed in 2017 with schizoeffective disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. I’ve managed my mental health with meditations until 2018 and since, I have not been on anything. With my therapist I’ve learned coping mechanisms and have safety plan. Now I’m seeing a wellness professional to get my back and health in order.

Fast forward to a few weeks ago, I told my therapist my boyfriend’s and I plan to have a baby. I’ve been to my ob/gyn and she has been amazing! However, once I told her, she became a person I’ve never met before. She started talking down on me and our decision. She stated that I will eventually need to give up school or work, and that I will develop PPD or worse. She’s “forcing” me to see a psychiatrist for medication. She also said that she wants to write my doctor about my mental health and talk with the psychiatrist as well.

I know she is coming from a caring place but she didn’t try to see my view point of it at all. I’ve been taking care of my mental health and if I feel the slightest depressed, I let someone know (my mom, boyfriend, best friend, ANYONE).

After our 45min session, I left feeling defeated... my boyfriend has been very supportive and told me not to let her get to me. However, now if I feel any mental health weakness I feel as if it’s bad to feel them. I feel as if I’m proving her right...

I just needed to vent. If you made it this far, thank you for listening. 🙂