Hate sex

I hate having sex with my husband. We’ve been together for ten years and he’s put me through so much which i decided to allow but now that he’s the “ideal” man I have no interest. I enjoy his company but that’s it. I hate when he touches me. He constantly wants sex. When he initiates, I get angry. So many years of trying to spice things up even through the major downs we’ve had, now I have no fight, no interest, no desire, no nothing. It makes me want to cry because I know sex is a major need for him. I don’t want to leave because there’s so much invested. Ughhhh. No point of this post I guess. Just venting maybe ☹️😔😭