Please help me lol

Ariel

I’ve watched so many videos of women giving birth without the epidural. Which is what I want to do. My mother gave birth to me and my brother without one and I just want to experience what it feels like. These videos never bothered me until one I just recently watched like 2 minutes ago. She was screaming at the top of her lungs yelling “JUST PULL HER OUT” omg. I had so much confidence preparing my body and my mind that I could do this without the epidural but this one particular video is stressing me out. I’m due in 6 weeks. Any advice?