Yesterday I had my 32 week appt I have also know that I had gestational diabetes sense 2 weeks ago I haven't had the things I need due to insurance problems (another story) I was supposed to see my midwife and a nurse to teach me how to check my sugar levels but let me just tell you the appt didn't go as plan it went completely 360 on us o they an ultrasound to check the babies position, fluid and growth well it turns out that the baby show the size of a 35 week and 5lbs and 7oz. Baby and I'm barely 32+2 yes I know the ultrasound can be a bit off but the midwife and and Obgyn team thinks that he is atleast 4 and half lbs if it is off but they don't really think thats the case sense my fundal height also measure 35 weeks I have only put up 12 lbs in my whole pregnancy sonits not.much but they do think its baby sense I look like I'm about to deliver not just that but sense I don't have insurance the whole medical team put me under high risk pregnancy and I need an urgent ultrasound for today at 3:30 but i need to come up with $400 up front and I don't have that type of money (yes people here might say well you shouldn't have a kid and you can't afford it) that's not the case my fiance and me been stable but guess what? Life happens and so do rough patches and thos is one and a big one the medical team also is contemplating a C-section way before my due date due to risk of stillbirth and to make matters worse my fiance and I broke up over this😥 this whole situation has put so much pressure on us and our relationship to this point not to mention I been referred to a other clinic were I'll be in a more expertise care sense I'm high risk and I have to pay every single visit cash up front with every sing thing they do there I'm also not working because all this pregnancy had just been rough on me so the best option was for me to stay home and now I don't know what to do😥 I feel alone and broken yesterday I didn't even know what to think or what will it happen and I'm guessing he is dealing with it in different way because instead of being comforting and supportive he became distant and just simply not acknowledging my existence all day he was just in the livingroom he stood in the couch till I felt sleep so he could come and lay down in bed but I wasn't all I can do was cry my eyes out as to why? He was acting this way and why he wasn't being here for me all I wanted was to be comforted and for him see my worries so know our relationship is over and o honestly don't want to stay here o want to leave but I can't o jave nowhere to go or anyone I can count on. Sorry ladies fo the long post but I just need to tell someone and get it out of my cheat sense I don't have friends or family I can talk to about I'm also posting this anonymous because I don't know who can be here and definitely don't want anyone know what going on front so post. Thank you in advance if any supportive comments please no negativity😥 its been so hard on me I have even eaten anything sense yesterday I just can't I have had enaugh all thos days