It’s insane because I have never felt less like myself than I did this summer . I stayed in tears , self esteem was gone , body image was out the window , cried to my boyfriend about the way I see myself . Eventually lost my boyfriend (due to right person wrong time) , thought he was going to be my forever . Stressed about my future every second of every minute . I fell off with my relationship with everyone and god . Turned a year older and feel just as though my life is still bland and I’m 20 and have nothing to show for it yet . Hoping this year will give me my heart and soul back .

I know I work hard everyday on my life and I tell myself I don’t need a man or need others to think I’m beautiful or successful - I work a full time job and pay bills all on my own and still trying to pay for school and I need to know to things : it’s not going to come together all at once & all I need is self love 🥰 so this year the goal is to build . I feel like the idea of beauty and success are so sculpted by society and social media it’s constantly telling girls you’re not enough . SO For every bad thing I say about myself I need to say something good . If anyone has any recommendations on how to build your self esteem or just to all around better yourself and your heart , feel free to drop below . Thank you for letting me have a safe place to share my thoughts <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.eve">Eve</a> . ❤️