One year since loss

I had started the seasonique birth control so we weren't trying. About 2 months after starting it I had what I thought was break through bleeding. After about 4 days of heavy bleeding and severe cramping I passed a large chuck of tissue. That's when it hit me that I had been pregnant. From my last period I would've been about 11 weeks pregnant. I had been dreaming about me setting up a baby boys nursery and never thought anything of it. It was all very upset and I blamed myself for the loss because I kept taking the birth control. I was numb for awhile. I finally prayed enough to give myself peace. It wasn't a good time for a baby to come. I had started the pill for a reason. 

Happy to say though that I am now 11 weeks pregnant with a little blessing that we actually started trying for in June. So ladies who have had miscarriages don't lose hope. I have had at least 3 and have 2 beautiful children and another on the way. Miscarriage is not your fault, and you shouldn't blame yourself for any reason.