Feel so alone

I experienced a stillbirth 1 year and half ago. Where I gave birth to my little boy at 26 weeks. I guess I’m just really struggling lately feeling like there is nothing to focus on all’s I think about everyday is him and some days it hits me harder than others. I’m just wondering if anyone has been through the same and would like to chat. My family and friends don’t speak to me about it anymore as it’s been so long but i feel if I don’t talk to someone I’m going to explode. Maybe just some advice on how to cope what helps you get by stuff like that