So I'm 3 days late, but scared to think I'm pregnant because I don't want to get my hopes up. We lost our first in February, and have had no luck since. My periods have been irregular so that's anothwr reason i don't want to get my hopes up. I'm going to be let down if I'm not pregnant.

I took 2 blue dye two pink dye tests over the past 5 days, so even before I was late. Both blue dyes had faint blue lines, both pink dyes had straight negatives. I have seen enough to know not to buy the blue ones again. So I'm not taking those faints seriously.

I can't talk to my best friends about this, one is struggling to conceive, the other has kids but recently lost her boyfriend to an accident, and was at the time trying to conceive with him. So it is pretty touchy all around right now and I don't want to cause them stress. Especially because this could very well be a false alarm.

I'm just really sad because I really want this to be real. But I just cannot let myself think it or I'll be just that much more let down. Just struggling. My husband knows I'm late but also is worried about getting his hopes up. We were devastated by our loss and are worried about another.