I’ve told my self for years I’m not gay

Okay so where I’m from being gay isn’t widely accepted yet. I’m not at all out. I’m so afraid.

I’ve come to the realization that I am in fact and always have been gay. But what really sucks is I denied it for so long that I didn’t realize til after having two kids. Don’t get me wrong I love my kids and I love their dad but I’m at the point there is no denying the fact and idk what the fuck to do.

If any of you have ever been in this situation and have any advice to offer please comment and give me any insight you can.